Got some journals to mention myself. But, since I'm a goddamn retarded fucker who doesn't know how ta link them, I'll just list 'em.
My man freddy_d is back in tha house.
axl_rose, the legendary rocker has graced us wit his almighty presence. (Love ya, man.)
jason_voorhees, the slasher and dasher, teenage head basher from tha Friday the 13th series has joined with michael_myers in the killa revolution.
End shameless pluggin'. What's been goin' down over here? A hurricane, it looks like, but maybe jus' a phat party, too. Drank myself stupid, damn right more than usual, last night. I'm gettin' so down about my kid, ya know? I just want her to have a good life an' some good parents, but how am I 'sposed to be a good father an' raise a kid when I ain't grown up myself? So, instead of tryin' to go out and better myself or what the hell have you, I throw a fuckin' party. I have to pat myself on the back an' say "Good job, Chris, ya dumbass motherfucker" on that one.
I've always been one to tell someone not ta get like this, don't try to be runnin' from your problems, don't try to drown them, 'cause when ya can't run no more and you're at the bottom of the bottle, ya still got your problems. And ya feel like shit. Hopeless an' shit. I just wish I could heed my own advice. Get my shit together, right?
But I've decided today, right now, that I'm gonna strive to be tha best goddamn dad that I can be. I don't want her growin' up like I, or any of my other fucked up brothaz have. I want her to have a good life. So I'ma better myself. Ya know, if not for me, for my shorty.
There's never been any sorta chance for me an' her mama, though. I did talk to her last night about it. We got in a fight then, an' as much as I want Karma to grow up wit her mama and daddy together, I'm not gonna try to make it work and stay together jus' for it. That's worse than splittin' up, 'cause then shorty's gotta grow up with parents who are always fightin' or just never together anyway -- and when they are it's mad chaos.
And other than that, I'm still not happy wit the way Chicken and Beer is shapin' up. I was really buggin' about it, but the more I listen to it an' go over it the less I like it. We'll just have ta see.
I guess I'm now the "make up some cool shit dream analyzer" for Mike of LP. I just had this thought about the first one, an' I posted somethin' on another one he mentioned. I haven't known him too long, but I really like the guy. He's really strong. He seems like a good, solid guy. A rock, ya know? Like even though shit goes down and looks really rough or hopeless, he seems like the kinda guy that'll use his head and not let things go too far.
I'ma do a little house cleanin'. Keep on commentin' to me, IMin' me or whatever, 'cause I will GLADLY take a big ass break from cleanin' any day.